Control.

We desire control & don’t like to lose it because it leads to helplessness. No one enjoys feeling helpless because deep inside we want to believe that we have what it takes.

Majority go through most of their lives trying to prove to themselves & to others that they have what it takes & that they are not helpless.

Our culture teaches & conditions us to be independent, competent & resourceful.

I share the same sentiment. This is why I research, plan, practice & execute, so that I may come to a desired end… that is… for the glory of God.

But I need to take a pause right here because if I am truly honest with myself, there within me a hint of desire that I just wrote about, that desire to prove that I have what it takes. That I am the real deal, the chosen one, the one who will be different than the rest & who is going to make a difference in the world & in God’s kingdom.

Did I just say that? I did.

It’s a symptom of my pride & insecurity, which by the way is the two sides to the same coin.

I have to confess that there were times when I have used the Name of our Lord to secure my own sense of significance. I am guilty of this every time when I don’t redirect people’s praises & compliments to my Father in heaven who empowers me. Instead I walk away feeling validated or say, “It’s not me. It’s God,” half-heartedly.

How wrong that is.

For me personally, one of the greatest blessings of ministry has been that it strips away all these self-deceptive games we play to find self-affirmation because without God’s active intervention, we will make all things even serving God about us when it should always be about Him.

God strips us of our deceptions, distractions & delusions by placing us in situations & relationships that are beyond our control, no matter how hard we try to have a handle on them. And if we are to face these situations honestly & prayerfully, God will lead us to the conclusion that we do not have any control, that we are not the ones who is leading our lives, and that we are indeed helpless.

Helplessness… we are often in denial of it, but there’s this sense of freedom that floods our hearts when we finally embrace our helplessness.

The Bible is full of men & women who have reached this point.

  • Joseph felt helpless when he was falsely accused & imprisoned.
  • Moses also felt helpless to lead God’s people out of Egypt.
  • David felt the same when he was on the run for many years from King Saul.
  • Jesus’ disciples were overwhelmed when confronted with 5,000 plus hungry mouths, and the list goes on and on.

But it is that exact moment when we accept our utter helplessness that we can finally let go of everything we have been clinging to control our life, and reach out to the One who is truly sovereign over all things.

John the Baptist said, “I must decrease (John 3:30),” so that Jesus may increase.

If we are in Christ, God has a way of making us less or helpless, so that Christ may become greater in our lives. It’s a lesson that I am relearning over & over as my family & I pray, prepare & raise support to go to Taiwan.

The truth is we are helpless to move hearts, but strangely it is in that place of helplessness that we find peace & when God’s Word comes alive because it has to.

It has to.

Apostle Paul, the missionary to Gentiles explains in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, “‘For My (Jesus) power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I (Paul) will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

Lord, please make us helpless…