feelings

It seems like emotions are looked down upon in the Christian circle.

I remember when I was a new believer, veteran Christians telling me how we cannot rely on emotions to assess our spiritual progress because it’s unstable & eventually what goes up must come down. I totally understand because there are those who rely solely on emotions to validate their spiritual experiences & encounter with God. I agree that’s not all that healthy or realistic. It’s like expecting a honeymoon period to last a lifetime. Although such period does come to an end, it doesn’t mean that it’s over for good because there will continue to be moments that stir our emotions & remind us of why we are in love.

Last Sunday was our last Sunday at Tampa Korean UMC. Our time really flew by. But at the same time, a lot happened in 6 years. We were able to witness God’s miraculous & gracious works, go through trials that refine our faith, and because of Christ we made friendships that touch our hearts & make us better.

How we will miss these friends in Christ!

Although I have emotions that give my heart a work out, I rarely display my emotions. It may be because of my background or culture or it may simply be because I want to be a strong spiritual leader.

Whatever the reason, I couldn’t contain my emotions last Sunday, and I knew at the start of my message that it was going to be a long sermon… but still it was wonderful because my emotions reaffirm my love for the sheep that God has entrusted to me. It hurt to leave.

But my emotions also derived from my sense of awe & gratitude toward God’s grace & power too for He has allowed a weak vessel like me to serve Him & His church.

EMOTIONS overflow…

Today was also emotional because today I donated most of my books. I should’ve donated them sooner, but somehow I wanted to hold on to them as long as I can.

Quite silly I know.

But then these books weren’t just books that I’ve read. They remind me of so much more than knowledge. They remind me that it was God who brought me this far because one thing that I am not, I am not a scholar. But after the Bible, God has used these books to mold & shape my mind & heart, my convictions. I have to say that these books came to me at such perfect times to bring me freedom, inspiration, joy & even tears. I couldn’t have done ministry without them.

EMOTIONS overflow…

For the past several weeks, we have been receiving hurtful mail both to our home & church. The last one came to church even last Wednesday. It may be a prank, but nevertheless hurts to think that anyone for whatever reason would do such a thing.

I’m so grateful to the pastors with whom I served because they’ve been there to encourage & pray with me. Again my…

EMOTIONS overflow…

When we turn to the Bible, it is filled with emotions that God’s people experienced & expressed.

  • In Exodus 15, Moses & the Israelites sang while Miriam & other women used tambourines & danced!
  • King David even said, “I will celebrate before the LORD. I will become even more undignified than this (2 Samuel 6:21-22)!”
  • The sons of Korah sang, “My tears have been my food day and night… as I pour out my soul (Psalm 42:3-4).”
  • Even John 11:35 records, “Jesus wept.”

I guess what I am trying to say this week is that EMOTIONS shouldn’t be denied because they are in fact GOD’S GIFTS to us, and they will lead us to Him who has created our hearts. He is continually molding & shaping & rewriting on the tablet of our hearts.

God allows our emotions to be stirred so that our hearts may be stretched, softened & seasoned.

In heaven, we will only experience half the emotions we have here on earth because there will be no more sickness, pain & sin. But a part of me wishes & hopes that God will allow me to miss & grieve for those I have known & loved, but who are not with us.

That has to be our motivation in sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ wherever we find ourselves because that is only when our joy will be complete.